And then...

I'm praying in Adoration, greatly troubled, and it's almost 3 so I pull up the None (Afternoon Prayer) from the Divine Liturgy

Psalm 118(119): 153-160

Alleluia. Alleluia. Alleluia. 

See my distress, and rescue me,

  since I have not forgotten your law.

Give judgement in my case and redeem me;

  give me life, as you have promised.

The wicked are far from salvation:

  they have not sought out your judgements.

Your acts of kindness are many:

  Lord, give me life as you have decreed.

How many pursue me and trouble me!

  But I have not abandoned your decrees.

I have seen liars and they disgust me,

  since they have ignored your promises.

Lord, see how I love your commandments!

  In your loving kindness, give me life.

Truth lies behind all your words:

  justice makes your judgements last for ever.

Glory be to the Father and to the Son and to the Holy Spirit,

  as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be,

  world without end.

Amen. 

Alleluia. Alleluia. Alleluia.

I'm not happy but I am at peace. I cried out and was heard.

I am blessed.