Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Can you say denial?

I'm sitting here thinking, two days from now, I'll be in the hospital dealing with a fresh new little person (God willing, of course). You would think that would inspire me to do something, anything, to finish the preparation. At this point, I'm not even willing to check the list (OK, I haven't even written a list).

I asked DH the other day if we have enough stuff to make it a week when the baby comes home and his answer was "yes". This morning (at 6 AM, ugh) I was at Mercy getting my pre-op blood work. Now they give you your wrist band which apparently admits you to surgery on the day of. If I lose it/cut it off, "there will be delays". So, I guess the constant reminder is making me slow down even more. I have gotten a few things done that matter to me but I'm still looking at a half-packed suitcase with no real interest. Surely there is someone you can hire to do this stuff? ;0)

I had my Anointing of the Sick on Monday morning after Mass. We took all the kids so that they could see me get my "special blessing" and not feel so scared. I don't think little man bought it (His big sister, budding MD that she is, explained the c-section in detail and he doesn't want me to have "a big hole in my belly" Thanks, sis). Anyway, that seems to have helped my anxiety a bit.

I went to Mass today and had a wonderful visit prior by our Pastor who stopped to wish me well and assure me of his hopes that things will go smoothly on Friday. When I got home I got really choked up by that. He is a great Pastor and I can see him doing that all on his own but today, he was completely a conduit for my dad. Really. I am not someone who has ever "finished strong" and my dad knew that. When Father came up and started speaking, it was all my dad, telling me to push through until the end. What a precious gift to me.

Maybe I'm just feeling a bit linked to those who have gone before since I watched "The Way" last night. It's a really good film. I don't think I cried once (which is even hard for me to believe) but it's got a lot of good writing and Martin Sheen does an excellent job. That and the thurible scene at the end - totally worth the 2 hours! (It's much better on the movie, btw)

The Botafumeiro of Santiago de Compostela

Finally, have you seen this "Texts from Hillary" page? With all the depression I'm feeling surrounding the upcoming elections, I couldn't help but laugh out loud at some of these. The captions are priceless.

Tomorrow is school Mass and cafeteria duty then off to the airport to pickup Aunt Julie (thank goodness!). I guess it will all sink in then and I can stay up all night making things just right for my departure. Since I haven't slept in about 3 days I guess I might as well use the time productively.

Have a wonderful, continued Easter celebration everyone! I look forward to posting some baby updates when I return home. Thanks, as always, for the prayers. We can surely use them!


  1. I have never heard of the movie The Way, but have a friend who went on that pilgrimage, and saw his videos of the awesome thurible! I just added it to my Netflix list. Thanks for the recommendation.

    I hope everything goes well on Friday - you'll be in my prayers!

    1. Thanks, Christine :)
      That is awesome that you know someone who made the pilgrimage! I'm sure he's got some great stories.

  2. I've been wanting to watch The Way- keep forgetting it's out! the priest who married us wrote a book about The camino and his experience pilgrimaging along it. Very good book, btw.
    I, for one, cannot wait to meet baby Rocco!!!! Don't lose that band!!!

  3. God bless and keep you. Welcome Baby Rocco!

  4. Prayers for you all, Sue! I understand the little ones stressing about your "hole". Max was really worried about my c-section with Grace. He talked a lot about my "big cut" and still does. I will say, I like the easy explanation of "how did I get out of your belly?" I show them the scar and they say, WOW! ;)

    re: texts from Hilary: hahahahahaha!